Date:	2006-03-14 17:30
Subject:	onos!
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited

Yeah, so there's actual news to put here!

I'm engaged. :o

It's weird being engaged... well, not weird with HER per se, but the idea of it. Didn't think I'd actually find a girl that I was 100% happy with, and yet I was proven wrong. I also didn't expect it to just... happen. It kinda fell in my lap (not literally, I'd hate to impale her :o ) and there ya have it!

So yeah, it's gonna happen in May.

So, um...

pie~

Date:	2006-02-17 02:11
Subject:	Holy crap :o
Security:	Public
Mood:	busy

Yeah, I've been... away from here for quite a while. It's been rough:

I moved again, closer to work.
I have a ladymoogle. :o
I have two new roomies, one a coworker and the other the ladymoogle's former roomie.
I'm dealing with all kinds of fun work-related stuff, but of course I can't actually discuss any of it.

But life's still pretty good. Challenges come and go, but as long as I don't hang myself by my trousers I'm doin' fine.

So stop worrying, dammit! I have it all covered. :D Overall it's grand, just the thousand little complications that keep cropping up.

The short of it is, I found a wonderful gal who seems to "get" me, and I had a job interview for a kickass programming job. For once, it seems that my life may be getting back to pre-divorce levels of happiness.

And now, notice how freaking nuts I am (THANKS DELNEY FOR HELPING ME PROVE THAT I R TEH NUTS)

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

The WHOLE world now knows...

I'm a geek. That's what I get for opening my pie hole, I guess. :o

Date:	2005-07-19 15:58
Subject:	Happy birfday to meeee
Security:	Public
Mood:	optimistic
Music:	Various Artists - ACE - Welcome To The Real World

Yeah, I've been a little lax in updating this thing lately but hey, no time like the present right?

Yesterday was my birthday. I couldn't take the day off to hide in my blankie so instead I ate lunch with coworkers and dinner (Japanese!) with my roomie. And yes, I had an alcoholic beverage (small bottle of sake). The people who really know me will be shocked right now. :o

As I usually try to do on my birthday, I came up with a couple of resolutions for what to do with my new year ahead of me.

• I'm going to work on my lil' Japanese books on how to write hiragana and kanji.


• I'm going to get some sort of certification for the work I'm doing now.

Date:	2005-06-28 16:55
Subject:	Fuzzy thoughts on marriage
Security:	Public
Mood:	mellow
Music:	Various Artists - Domino - Hey Mr. Dee Jay

I was talking about religion and stuff, and eventually gay marriage was brought up, and figured I'd post this for posterity.

I believe that instead of the government legislating what marriage is, we should
seperate it - all marriages can be converted to civil unions with all the
benefits they currently enjoy and allow any two adult humans of sound mind to
enter into them, and let churches consecrate it as they would like so they can
be unioned before whatever god or goddess they want. The state handles the
state's bits, the church handles the church's bits and everyone's happy.

Date:	2005-06-27 00:07
Subject:	Stolen from...
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm

Ten People You Talked To Today (yesterday):
01) lorriet <3 whom I stole this from ;)
02) Roomie
03) Kristy, friend in Seattle 
04) paganmudslide, ex-wife
05) I'm cheating,
06) because this was a quiet moogleweekend
07) and very few people talk to me.
08) Raelinne, DAoC buddy
09) Teknoflow, online friend
10) jesterswife

Nine Things
You Can't Live Without:
01) Desktop
02) Laptop
03) teh job
04) teh roomie
05) My friends, the few that I trust
06) My plush moogle.  He gets his own mention
07) Books
08) My sense of humor
09) My pants

Eight Things In Your
Room:
01) Computers
02) Alarm clock
03) Phone
04) TV
05) stack o' anime <3
06) swords (one wooden, one real)
07) Japanese PS2
08) HUGE stack o' roleplaying books.

Seven Bad Habits:
01) smoking
02) sloppy
03) procrastinating
04) LAZY!
05) misunderstanding the seriousness of situations
06) Overthinking
07) Curiousity


Six Things You Touch Daily:
01) keyboard
02) pants
03) keys
04) myself! ;)
05) video game controller
06) shower door


Five Things I Hate:
01) closed-mindedness
02) people who intentionally piss others off
03) people who bitch about things they can't change.
04) dying for the umpteenth time in a certain spot in a game. >.<
05) American politics


Four TV Shows You Watch:
01) Family Guy
02) The Weather Channel
03) Anime
04) more anime.  I don't watch TV really.


Three Good Friends:
01) lorriet
02) My roommate
03) delney


Two Favorite Foods:
01) Chinese
02) Indian


Name One Thing That You Value The Most:
01) My friends.  They are the family I got to choose, and I'm currently very happy at the moment with them. :) 

Date:	2005-06-26 23:45
Subject:	Me, not silly.
Security:	Public
Mood:	melancholy

Why does it surprise people that I'm not always fuzzy and huggy and silly and nawty?

Some on a message has a habit of posting rather depressive stuff and for once posted that he was pretty giddy 'cuz he found a girl (because we all know, once you start hitting it with someone of the opposite gender life feels grand for a bit ;) ), which elicited some comments to the effect of "hey, yesterday you were anything but happy and content... what, life isn't dreadfully gray and just a long wait until you die?" So my response was "You can cut into the front of the line, if you take it upon yourself to do so" (all paraphrased) and people say "this is a colder, meaner Fuzzy".

I've thought of ending myself, yes. I'm sure I'm not the only one. I'm not always happy and peachy - it doesn't make me bad, it means that I've seen the world and been around the block a few times. For the longest the principal reason for not ending myself was the thought that I had a purpose in life, some reason why I didn't die in childbirth or be aborted (seeing as my mother abused every substance known while I was in the womb, and would have been aborted if she had used the money given to her for that as opposed to buying said substances). After my divorce, that reasoning didn't seem to work as well, so I've been pondering everything trying to figure out reasons to live. In the end, I'm here because... I'm here. When it's time for me to move on, I'm sure fate will provide a way to do so. Until then, I don't see a reason to do anything about it. Every day shows me something new, and as long as I have a direction I'll keep wandering and doing what I can with what I have.

I'm not morbid necessarily, nor am I self-defeating. Maybe depressed sometimes, but I think everyone is. It's just one of the things I've thought a lot about and came to a decision as opposed to jumping to a snap-judgement based solely on self-preservation. I choose to live. When I stop choosing that, I'll be done.

Date:	2005-06-24 00:15
Subject:	She's SOUTHERN...
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	MAX - Never Gonna Stop It (Eurobeat Mix)

Okay, I'm typing this out so I'll remember later, and thusly be able to more explain why I said this to a friend of mine who went out with a girl from Missouri, went to her house with beer (she bought it), did interesting drinking games that involved talking about very naughty things indeed and in the end, was turned down.

She's "southern". The kind of girl who had a rather religious, closeted upbringing that mostly revolved around her small clique of friends who didn't know many more people than she did. She may have had sexual encounters but, well, she hasn't had a lot of variation nor a recurring boyfriend of any sort (or if so, all they understood was putting Tab A into Slot B and agaitating = good). In their mind, they're experienced but when facing someone who's actually had sexual encounters that involved decidedly more they choke as it's more than a few steps beyond their understanding. In their mind they're nawty and they've HEARD of some of the nawtier things in life (as in, toys or pain/pleasure, etc) but certainly haven't DONE them (note above - no steady boyfriends or one who is a good ol' boy and ain't done none o' that thar kin-ky stuff the yankees do). Probably abuses a vice or two (alcohol, tobacco or both) but nothing big.

I saw this rather often when I was in high school and even past it in rarer and rarer quantities (well, I haven't lived in the south for a while, sooo).

At least, that's my theory, and as a self-proclaimed peoplewatchermoogle that's what I know.

I feel sorry for 'em tho... Methinks his pride may have been thumped. :(

Date:	2005-06-22 22:57
Subject:	Good times, bad times
Security:	Public
Mood:	grateful
Music:	Initial D - Don't Stop the Music

PhilosophicalMoogle:

Be happy for the good times you have. They're fleeting and you'll only recognize them as good times after they're gone, most times. They're what shape what happiness is to us.

Be happy for the bad times as well. Yes they suck, but it's within these times that we understand how good the good times are and gain perspective on where the bottom is. They remind us that growth of character comes from pain sometimes as well as pleasure, and there's always a lesson in the agony of a downward swing in life.

And always, ALWAYS be thankful for those around you. Other people need to know that you appreciate them, as you probably like being appreciated. Go give those special people hugs and thoughts of encouragement.

Date:	2005-06-22 13:17
Subject:	You'd THINK I knew better...
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	Dave Rodgers - Ale' Japan

I post a lil' snippet on a message board I frequent:

Blue moon of the year, full moon, the moon is in cancer...
everything says "emotions will be in overdrive, doubly so for water signs".


Just a helpful reminder.

Then the thread turns into a deep, meaningful discussion on how astrology is bad and how Christians are bashed.

I need to find a new message board. :(

Date:	2005-06-20 11:05
Subject:	waking up...
Security:	Public
Mood:	lethargic
Music:	Karen - Come & Get Me

sucks! Especially when the power goes out in the middle of the night, thusly causing all the alarm clocks in the house to go out. :(

Date:	2005-06-19 23:49
Subject:	Much ado about nothing...
Security:	Public
Mood:	gloomy

Just me, pondering life again. It seems that options and ideas are presented, prepared for and snapped away like that last gust of wind in autumn that blows the leaves as they fall. One week I'm completely giddy about certain things, 24 hours later I'm nervous, then later saddened and dismayed, then learning to cope afterward. It's a strange, strange cycle, and I continue to learn that it's rough having to depend on other people, as I'm pretty sure it's been difficult for other people to depend on me. I have self-confidence in every aspect except romantic, able to deal with any situation except with someone whom I like... but then again, I may have to go look for another roommate soon so none of the above matters. It's not his fault... well, it is a little but blaming people doesn't help a thing.

I guess I have a bit of stuff to think about again.

Oh, and she never contacted me again so it's a no-go methinks.

Doctor eats fetuses

Dude. Just, dude... gyaaaah...

Date:	2005-06-14 16:55
Subject:	You've played too much GTA: San Andreas when...
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	Neon Genesis Evangelion) - Fly Me To The Moon (Techno Ayanami) (English) (ANIME)

you got your roomie to play it, and then you receive this message:

[name removed] says:
OMG WHAT TIME CAN YOU BE READY FOR ME TO JACK THE PO PO

Date:	2005-06-13 20:06
Subject:	The MJ trial
Security:	Public
Mood:	apathetic
Music:	Ayumi Hamasaki - Independent (Europop extended mix)

They say he's innocent. Now it's not our place to say one way or the other whether he's actually guilty - speculation could go all freaking day long. What I DO know, however, is that there is one reason why he's walking today:



This was tapped, and the prosecution didn't deliver, so they lost. Bottom line.

Date:	2005-06-13 11:56
Subject:	A meeting of the minds...
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	Dave Rodgers - Ale' Japan

moogie.rm:
she'd be liek "omg fuzzy i want yuo"

moogie.rm:
and I'd be all liek "I put on my wizard robe and
hat"

moogie.rm:
and then we'd roll d100s.

moogie.rm:
and consult the charts and subsections.

calimond:
haha

moogie.rm:
I have wood already just thinking about
it.

A guy from a board I hang out on decided to get a tattoo.

This is where he shows appreciation for someone very important

BWAHAHAHA

Date:	2005-06-11 10:57
Subject:	Gaming goodness?
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative

Yeah, the Battlefield 2 demo came out and I grabbed a copy of it. Thus far, I've discovered that... it takes for freaking ever for the servers to come up. Like, many, many minutes. Not only that, it seemed to suck out all of the processes on my CPU and disable Ctrl-Alt-Del, which means after having waited a half hour (after it came up once, I accidentally clicked on "local servers", re-clicked to refresh, then after they all FINALLY came up thought "ooo, maybe I can sort by ping so I can have all the stuff in one place" and it seeming to attempt to refresh AGAIN) I gave it the one-finger salute to the power button. Sheesh. :|

And yet again, I remember that there is a ska song for every occasion. *sighs and turns the music up louder*

Date:	2005-06-10 09:57
Subject:	Completed!
Security:	Public
Mood:	optimistic
Music:	Various Artists - Mad Cow & Royal Eurobeat Orch. Of Bazookistan f/Supertroyka Girls - I Want Your Ba

Yeah, had the machine done last night, all but running all the Office stuff to make sure he didn't get anything popped up that might confuse him. So that was pretty shweet.

And tonight should be better than last night, I hope. :o

Altho last night was pretty... Lots of nice bits o' lightning. Hanging out on the balcony with teh roommate (he was playing M:tG on his laptop) was great as the sky exploded every so often with white light.

And, uh... yeah. I liek caek.